for the first time

i know why you plague me.

Caution; I may have the sudden urge
to kiss you be prepared.

You can put a man on trial,
but you can't make the guilty pay.
And you can cage an animal,
but you can't take away the rage.

i wasn't running for my life; i was racing to save something infinitely more precious.

"Honestly - I've seen corpses with better color. I was concerned that I might have to avenge your murder." Edward

"The only guess I have is that maybe your mind doesn't work the same way the rest of thiers do. Like you thoughts are on the AM frequency and I'm only getting FM." Edward
"My mind doesn't work right? I'm a freak?" Bella
"I hear voices in my mind and you worried that you're the freak." Edward

"Bella, the last real birthday any of us had was Emmett in 1935. Cut us a little slack, and don't be too difficult. They're all very excited." Edward

"How strongly are you opposed to grand theft auto?” Alice

"Yesterday, when I would touch you, you were so hesitant, so careful, and yet still the same. I need to know why. Is it because I'm too late? Because I've hurt you too much? Because you have moved on, as I meant for you to? That would be...quite fair. I won't contest your decison. So don't try to spare my feelings, please - just tell me now whether or not you can still love me, after everything I've done to you. Can you?" Edward

“She has a heartbeat, though it runs a little faster than a human’s. Her temperature is a little bit hotter than usual, too. She sleeps.” Edward
“The only parents in the world who don’t need sleep, and our child already sleeps through the night.” Edward

just stay a while..

i can see it in your eyes
you're taking on a load that's just too strong.

if i had one call to make, i would dial yesterday
and warn myself
tell my lips the words to say, not let you just walk away
with someone else

you stood there like a stone
but now that she's gone?
how strong are you now

enough of the bullshit.

i need to get back on track with my body weight. my exboyfriend[ the guy i love] left for peru today. he's coming back in two weeks. i wanna look fucking amazing when he comes back. end of story. im gunna need help. im sick of just blaming myself and wallowing in self pity. im gunna do something about it this time. im gunna get thinner.

yeah, im already thin. but i wanna get intense.

im ready.

stay with me until this ends.

And honestly, i have been begging for answers
that you and only you can give to me.
A voice crying loud,
i've been crying for days now
and as i start to run, i stop to breathe.

The days have come and gone
Our lives went by so fast
I faintly remember breathing on your bedroom floor
Where I laid and told you, but you swear you loved me more

I was worried I wouldn't be good enough for you...
and that's why I lied. that's what scares me,
not being enough, not smart enough, not pretty enough,
not good enough.

Take one glance, because soon I'll be gone.
You taught me not to wait too long.
It's time for you to go.

You're going to hate me when I tell you everything.
You're going to question whether you really know me at all.
You will revisit every smile, and where it fits into the day.

After this long,
I expected it to get better.

After this long,
I expected it to get better.

Have you ever had a problem you had to keep to yourself?
And you`re trying, but it hurts like hell?
Wishing you had someone to trust, so you can let it all out, convey the reason why you`ve been feeling so down.
But when you reach out for help, you find there`s no one but yourself.
I know.

I would have answered your letter sooner
But you didn't send one.

And you get to a point where you stop feeling sorry for yourself.
You realize no one's going to save you, so you have to save yourself.
You turn your life around, not knowing where you're going, just knowing that you'll do anything,
Anything to be happy again.

Years pass and I'm gone
It's too late to confess and cry
I live with this curse, I walk in her shadow
My heart breaks
I swear, you fell apart at the seams
You only know what this means when you're not feeling

Doctor, Doctor I'm dying now.
Broken hearts bleeding death wishes.
Scream your insecurities.
its much too late to save me.

the weak forgive and forget. the strong remember it every waking moment and apply it to the future.

I'm terrified of winding up alone forever, but I'm more terrified of being with the wrong person, when the right one shows up.

Sometimes you just need to cry and be sad. You need to break down and be torn apart. You need to learn how to pick yourself up and put yourself back together. Sometimes, the only way to be happy is give in to sadness first. Because without sadness, there's no happiness; you would never learn to smile.

Always behave like a duck. Keep calm and unruffled on the surface, but paddle like hell underwater.

Am I the reason people always leave? Am I the reason all these things keep happening to me? Maybe I'm just destined to be alone.

So you turn up the music
and try to block out the screams.
You try to ignore your heart
as it crumbles and bleeds.
The pain is too much.
You can't take it anymore.
And every time
You turn up the volume,
You scream a little more.